我 的 名字 是 杰西卡

It’s hard for me to like myself

when no one else does

things that are strange/difficult to realize

- there is a reason for all of this. (I don’t mean God’s reasoning in this case) He did what he did for a reason he has decided upon and he isn’t trying to fix it for a reason he has decided upon.
- he could have done anything and I probably would have caved… My sister’s ex got her a bouquet of flowers, took her out to dinner, and sat down with her one day to express how much she means and how he knows he doesn’t deserve her, but wants to try to be the type of guy she deserves. I don’t need all of that… He could’ve made me a fucking “oops I messed up but I’m sorry and I love you” card or a mix cd or pretty much anything(!) and I probably would have taken him back. But he didn’t.
- I need to accept the previous fact.
- life goes on. and it can still be good.
- I really dislike the way I look, but I’m not getting plastic surgery on my face or body or anything, so I might as well just accept it and be okay with it.

I need a cuddle buddy.

frustrating things at 2 am

1. Not being able to fall asleep even though I really, really want to snooze
2. My dog hogging the covers
3. I keep on randomly losing the ability to breathe through my nose
4. Stomach ache from sleepiness
5. No one to cuddle with
6. Weird, uncomfortable energy in all of my limbs
7. Everything